Thursday, July 07, 2005

my daugther



This is my dearest daughter, Nur Anisah... actually she doesn't like to wear hats and sunglass but we were on our way to a friend's wedding and she wore it because she knew she will be the center of attention.. she really knows how to attract people's attention...

anyway.. while i wrote this, she is on her way to johor bahru with my sister and brother-in-law.. she'll be meeting her nenek and onyang soon... bet there are happy.. but wonder how she will behave when the nights come and she suddenly realized mummy is not around... tunggguuuuuuuuu

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

excuses..

Why do I feel congested all the time?
Believe it or not, it's pretty common to have a runny or stuffed-up nose during pregnancy. About 30 percent of pregnant women have congestion without any other cold symptoms while they're pregnant. This condition even has a name: rhinitis of pregnancy. It frequently starts in the third month of pregnancy and can last until you have your baby or even a few weeks afterward.

Higher levels of estrogen during pregnancy can contribute to swelling in the mucous membranes lining the nose and even cause you to make more mucus. What's more, the amount of blood in your body increases and your blood vessels expand during pregnancy, which can lead to swollen nasal membranes as well.

That said, a stuffy nose might just mean what it usually means — that you have a cold or allergies. If your stuffy nose is accompanied by sneezing, coughing, sore throat, or mild aches and pains, you probably do have a cold. Check with your practitioner before taking any cold or allergy remedies to see which ones are safe for you.

Pregnancy can also make your allergies worse, or cause you to be sensitive to allergens and other irritants that never bothered you before. Whether or not your congestion is allergy-related, avoiding potential irritants — such as cigarette smoke and alcohol (which you should already be avoiding!) and sudden temperature changes — can help a lot. You should also avoid exercising outdoors on days when there's a lot of air pollution.

What else can I do for relief?
Steam can be very effective at relieving congestion and very soothing. Take a warm shower and hang out for a while afterward in the steamy bathroom. Use a humidifier or vaporizer to put more moisture into the air and keep it near your head at night.

For serious stuffiness, cover your head with a towel and lean over the humidifier for ten to 15 minutes a few times a day. Be sure to keep the humidifier very clean. Change the water daily, since it can be a breeding ground for bacteria, particularly in cool-mist humidifiers. You'll need to replace the filters often as well. For a low-tech alternative, use a bowl of steaming hot water instead, or moisten a washcloth with hot water, hold it up to your face, and breathe.

You can also try saline drops or a buffered saline nasal spray, available over the counter at the drugstore. Spritz or drip a bit into each nostril and within five or ten minutes you should be able to blow your nose more easily.

Remember to drink plenty of fluids and keep your head elevated at night. If congestion continues to make you miserable and keeps you from getting a good night's rest, ask your practitioner which medications are safe for you to try. It's generally best to avoid exposing your baby to any medications during your first trimester, when the organs are forming. If your practitioner says it's okay, you can try a decongestant. Avoid overusing decongestant nasal sprays, though, because they can cause rebound inflammation and make your congestion worse.

As troublesome as this symptom seems, the good news is that it's not dangerous. A stuffy nose will have absolutely no effect on your baby, and your symptoms will probably clear up within a day or two after you give birth.

--> agaknya sebab tu kot aku kena flu.. heheheheh

Monday, July 04, 2005

sick...

today i am sicked.. really sick.. my flu is back since yesterday.. and my headache is killing me now.. but i have to go to the office today cause i have a very important meeting to attend to.. i took few hours of sleep afterwards but still it is not enough.. now i am totally exhausted.. but have to wait for few more hours before i can reach home and have a good rest... not sure if i am able to go to work tomorrow..

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

i'm out of title coz i am very angry and upset now..
why they make it difficult..
it's not that hard.. just release a letter then everything is settled..
satu alasan tak boleh diterima..
nanti kalau orang tanya saya nak jawab apa..
that's why you re only fit to be govt servant..

p/s: am very pissed with one the govt servant here sebab takmo bayar claim kitorang with too many excuses.. benci.. benci... benci...

Friday, June 24, 2005

a week of joy?

our weekend starts with ardi went for a futsal friendly match.. then he injured himself sebabnya marahkan teammate dia main tak betul.. tu lar.. kan dah aku susah.. hahaha.. so he supposed to play on sunday for futsal tourney.. but end-up on bed tak boleh bangun cause his lutut was badly sore... so he rested for the day.. so do we.. {my in-laws were not around so i can be lazy at home.. hehehe.. } sedar2 the three of us were asleep and we supposed to go for a wedding.. and it was already 2pm, asked ardi whether he wants to go or I cook.. in the end.. we went for the wedding.. {that's why we're late caza}.. went home.. tried to have more sleep.. hahah.. but failed.. have to go to clinic and asked for MC.. still not recovered..

F1 was definitely s***s.. michelin was so damn stupid.. what's wrong with the engineers.. FIA was even worst... but Ferrarri was really really worst and stupid and ... okey it was not their fault but for the sake of sportmanship.. give in laaa...

here come monday.. ardi was home but he got some problems with his projects at Canon and everybody called him.. he was so frustrated coz tdo kena kacau.. hehe.. he wanted to go to specialist to x-ray his knee but then changed his mind.. and tuesday.. have to go to clinic.. 2 days MC were given.. bestnya... then he kept calling me.. to go home a.s.a.p.. even persuade me to watch star wars... day 1.. manage to tell him.. have lots of work to be done... day 2.. failed.. so by 11.30am, am off to shah alam.. picked him up and straight to Sunway Pyramid.. yah yah yah... {caza.. lambat sangat tunggu ko.. gi dulu ek!}.. check the phone nobody call.. yahuu!! then.. my dr stein melody bunyi... aiseh boss call.. kantoi laa plak... nasib baik on the way out.. lega.. he didn't asked where I was {he was at another office}.. just asked few questions on some issues that we currently have.. okey.. settle... long john silver.. have some fish n chips.. then.. mannnn.. there's a called from office... sapa lak ni... ooo.. my colleague.. aiseh! my bos is at my office now.. looked for me.. wanted to talk with me... well.. he asked where i put this letter.. and this and that,... allah.. tanya lak ada kat mana.. spontaneously.. HOSPITAL.. iskkkk.... then few more calls.. and more and more... why lar this people ek.. when i am at the office nobody wants to call.. but when i am not ath office..suma call.. cam tau2 je..

thursday.. meeting.. meeting... and today...

wrap-up... best gak dapat mengular gi tgk wayang... with hubby lagi.. bukannya senang.. eheheheh.. finally.. revenge of the sith..

{aku tengok yoda cam anisah..}

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

friends - part II

had a great weekend with the CHIs.. pandai korang ek pilih rumah aku.. anyway.. we had fun although it was very short.. well since we can't spend overnight at each other house anymore.. so this is the best we can do now.. hope we can do more of this.. but if we can do at least once a year besides raya and other special occasion that will be nice laa... maybe by then we already growing our CHIs...

Thursday, June 09, 2005

friends

when my friends are fighting, i feel sad...

i don't have many friends so i value all of them..

so is the terms 'friends forever' really exist?

i don't know....

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

i remembered...

uhuuu.. realize i haven't been updating this since.. wow.. 2 months ago.. the first one month, i was in johor bahru.. telling everybody i have course to attend in JB.. but actually all I wanted to was to take care of ayah.. but it never happened.. he passed away 12 hours after I arrived in JB ready to be his 'nurse'..

then, i have doubts whether to stay or to go back to Shah Alam.. abang and akak really wanted me to stay to take care of emak while she's recovering from sadness, ardi said up to me.. after much thought, i stayed for a month.. well to exact for 6 weeks..

when ayah final moment, i was the only real person who was beside him, i was the one who feed him his final drinks with air zam-zam, i remembered he asked emak to go and pray solat Zuhur, i remebered he was sweating like rain but his body was really cold, i remembered when anisah was trying to drink his air zam-zam and he looked at anisah to hold her, but if i knew that was his final moment, i will let an isah played with him for a while, instead i pulled anisah away, i remembered when he told me he can't see a thing, 'GELAP', that's what he said, i switched on the lights and he said it's still dark, i remembered when i tried to give him more air zam-zam, he asked me to stop and he hugged me really hard although early that morning he can't even hold a piece of tissue, i remembered when everybody asked to move away so that he can stretch out his leg, i tried but he kept hugging me, at last i pulled away, we laid him down on the floor, i remembered when i tried to massage him, my uncle said no, i remembered seeing emak was kissing his face over and over to wake him up, i remembered i called abang and akak to tell them to come back as soon as possible (abang had appointment with contractor and akak send our cousin to hospital, that's why i feed him).. i remembered when akak arrived, she was stunned, i remembered when abang arrived, he felt on his knees, i remembered when ee called i can hear his voices were crying, i remembered when i called ardi to come back a.s.a.p with boy (my brother-in-law), i remembered when the dr said he may still alive and asked us to bring to the hospital, i remembered when mak said no when the ambulance had arrived, let him died peacefully, i remembered when the man were showering his final bath, i remembered when they wore him his last clothes, i remembered when we had to kiss him final goodbye, even anisah did that, and we waied for his in-laws (ardi and boy) to arrive for their final kiss, then i remembered we prayed him for the very last time, i remembered when they brought him down and finally put him in the van to his final resting place, i didnt go to the kubur (had period) and accompany mak... that was our final goodbye to him... i know that event will always fresh in mind... and i will always remember ayah...

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Far and Away

to those yang ter'rajin' visit my blog.. nak apologize dulu.. have not updated my blog since mid-february.. sorry guys.. i am too busy with every thing.. especially work.. lately i have no time to think of anything else except buat module training, cari quotation, call vendor, database nak up kan.. blah blah blah blah.. shrap at 5 aku dah kena balik.. what to do! after 5pm, my hours are with my family.. i nkow my boss tak favor langsung.. but i have to deal with it..

tapi kerja gila-gila.. still no increment and bonuses.. sad huh! still looking for jobs.. and almost give-up but at the same time i love where i am now.. the flexibility that i enjoyed, the great colleagues that i have met and so on..


anisah dah 1 tahun 1 bulan and 19 hari... can't get enough of her.. every day every hour every minute.. she is one cheeky girl, know how to make her parents angry and at the same time know how to put a smile on her parents' face.. she's a real charmer... nowadays i don't visit her during lunch hour anymore.. she's being extra naughty when i am around.. so better off for me not to around although i miss doing that and not sure what to do during lunch hour..

hubby skrang ni banyak kerja.. sian kat dia bila balik kilang tu.. one of his colleague dah berhenti, so he has to tanggung all the kerja but the good thing he is no longer under that snobbish engineer who is also our neighbour but very selfish and undermine other people.. think he is too great.. now hubby cannot take extra hour when we need extra money due to canon's policy to limit OT for executive to 40 hours only.. tak cukup oooo...

ayah is recovering but his appetite still not getting better... mom is worried.. so do the rest of us... and having nenek around the house even 'suffer' my parents, after arwah atuk has passed away she's been nagging and scolding every body.. poor ayah and mak have to take all the blame and accusations.. but cannot blame nenek also.. maybe that;s her way of fighting her sad emotions...

we will be going to brunei soon... so i have to write a letter to apply for the long break.. so gotta go

Monday, February 14, 2005

water splash holiday...

thanks to canon's new policy.. i managed to spend the 5 days holiday with my hubby... we spend 2/3 of the holiday at my sister's place at sungai long...

Day 1.. leisure around her house... brought anisah for her swimming lesson after months and months and months.. at first she was very frustrated with herself for not being able to swim.. hehehe... then after a while.. maybe tengok mummy and daddy and uncle2 semua syok swim.. she wanted to join and now she's having fun...

day 2.. we went to sungai tekala waterfall.. the journey was really long.. we arrived around 10am.. there were 18 of us.. once we arrived there.. after having some breakfast we jumped to the river.. it was very cold.. anisah was excited at first.. but then the water was so cold.. she changed her mind.. and her beloved daddy plak.. gi tenggelamkan dia.. nasib baik mummy to the rescue.. brought her up again... changed her.. feed her.. then on the 2nd round baru lar she's okey... malam tu went to midvalley

day 3.. since we were all very tired.. suma orangduduk rumah saja.. except for abang who brought his nephem to sunway lagoon.. and ardi searched for workshop since our car broke down again!!! ptang to swimming time again... but anisah really did not want to enter the pool.. but at least she's having fun at the playground...

day 4.. meminang time... well sort of... my brother.. EE balik mengejut from german... dah lar tu... bagitahu nak kahwin.. so from today (14/2).. we only have less than 5 days to get everything ready... ee..ee.. well at least we all are glad for his decision...

day 5.. at home in shah alam.. run all errands before start to work again...

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Happy Birthday Anisah

10.16am on 5th February 2004, a baby girl was born.. the screeching sound of the blade i heard while they cut my "downunder" was wiped away with the sweetest sound i ever heard, the cries of my baby.. the midwife showed me her gender.. yes it was a girl... it happened very fast.. but still.. it is fresh in my memory...

now a year has passed...

Happy Birthday anakku sayang... Nur Anisah Binti Ardi Irwan.. mummy will take care of you forever and i hope you will be a good and solehah daughter.. just do know that... mummy and daddy will love you forever..

Friday, January 21, 2005

Hari Raya Aidiladha

been busy..

esok dah nak raya haji.. how time flies very fast.. am not going back to JB for this raya... ardi takde cuti.. so i left alone with anisah and my in-laws (Hmmm!!)... dah lar tu cuti sampai ari isnin.. bosan giler lar nanti ni..

anyways.. i am not feeling well today.. nose blocked and dizziness... and to make it more interesting i have interview session this afternoon with traderoof company at uptown.. hope i can do well..

ayah dah kuar from hosp selayang more than a week ago.. he's now in JB.. i think it's better for him to be back to JB since that is his home... from my bro.. he eats more now.. so hope he gain weight and energy so that he can recover soon.. he will have to do checkup every 3 months.. and we opt to do in selayang rather than in JB..

cannot write more.. still dizzy... SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all...

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Anisah


Minah Rempit!! Posted by Hello

she's no longer baby of the week.. well dah nama pun baby of the week.. so last for a week je lar kan... anyway.. for those yang tak sempat nak tengok just check out www.mix.fm then go to baby bloomer section and click archive.. just browse you will find her.. vote for her okey.. she's been babbling nowadays.. sometimes non-stop for hours.. i was amazed.. so do ardi... we always wonder.. where she gets the talent from.. well ardi n me is not a kind of person who talks a lot.. after much thought we believe it comes from her onyang.. both sides in fact.. on the other sides.. she's going to be 11 months tomorrow.. how time flies very fast.. still feel that she was born few hours ago... still can feel the moments in the labor room... still remember times when i was craving for things during pregnancy.. still remember why all the sudden i feel hungry even though i had just eaten.. still remember my wedding day.. still remember the moments when I was and still am officially Ardi Irwan's wife.. still remember the small ceremony for my merisik time.. still remember my first date... still remember when i accept his proposal to be friend with me.. and still remember... lots more...

2005 is here....

Been away quite sometime.. been very very tired lately.. pass few days I hav been driving around KL but not actually in KL..

saturday.. SHAH ALAM-SELAYANG-AMPANG-PUTRAJAYA-SHAH ALAM

sunday.. SHAH ALAM-SELAYANG-SHAH ALAM

monday.. SHAH ALAM-AMPANG-SELAYANG-SHAH ALAM

letih.. letih.. the driver is me.. penat tak ingat nya laaa...

ayah still kat hospital.. been quite sometime... last sunday.. he got fever.. pastu sesak nafas.. we went panicked and worried.. emak especially.. the nurse monitored his heart.. normal but he needs support to breath easily.. found out that his lung got infection..

finally we managed to talk to one of the doctor.. he said the only problem with ayah is he lack of exercise and don't eat very much.. doctor said it's all in his mind.. if he wants to recover early he needs to eat and exercise.. so we (my sister and me) talked to him.. we explained to him his condition.. try to understand why he is still in the hospital and try to psychology him to eat more and exercise more.. i hope he will understand what we are trying to do...

i am done now....

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Baby of the week..

go to this site.. http://www.mix.fm/04/mixrnr/baby/ anisah dapat jadi baby of the week... i am a very proud mummy...

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

High Dependency Ward

erk... lama nya tak menulis... been very busy lately... sesangat sangat...

Ayah's Operation

ayah had his operation for liver cancer last friday (17/10) .. he went to the operation room at 7am... mak, abang, akak, boy, me, ardi, ami and even anisah were outside since 7am.. the operation supposed for 5 hours.. tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu... around 5.30pm baru ayah keluar.. so that's about 10 hours.. tapi ayah trak leh terus naik wad 8.. he has to stay at HDW first.. i got in at 6++ after yang lain masuk... banyaknya wayar2 yang attached kat badan ayah... sian ayah.. still sedar tak sedar.. but he already recognized us.. none of us can stay to look after him.. kalau nak stay pun ada bilik yang disediakan.. so we decided everybody to go home...
alhamdulillah ayah is getting better.. day 2 he can drink already... day 3 can eat soft food... but still have difficulty nak buang air.. semalam dah bukak the bandage.. the stitches.. hmmm.. geli nak tengok actually... but none of us have yet to see the doctor to know more on the operation.. anyway.. for those yang nak gi melawat ayah.. call me ek...

Anisah's treatment

anisah has been sicked for past weeks.. dia nya flu and cough tak henti2.. until doctor suspect she got asthma.. although ada yang kata keturunan.. but still we tried to deny it.. but her phlegm memang ada and sangkut kat tekak dia.. so finally we decided to treat her traditionally.. fortunately we know someone taht can help us.. mak girlfriend adik aku, EE tu.. that auntie can help her.. so last saturday.. we sent anisah kat that aunties's house kat melawati.. we were quite lucky to send her rather early.. masa auntie tengah massaged anisah.. she found out that her urat perut dah bengkak due to jatuh masa dia kecik lagi.. (lesson: kalau anak jatuh bawak lar gi jumpa orang untuk urut.. tak yah jumpa doktor).. tapi sian tengok anisah.. dia paling tak suka dipaksa baring memang dia akan mengamuk lar.. tapi alhamdulillah she's recovering now.. her breath skrang dah tak macam dulu... dah takde bunyi2.. batuk masih ada.. but insya allah will recover in few days time.. her phlegm yang buat bunyi tu keluar banyak giler.. what ever it is i am happy.. alhamdulillah...

Saturday, December 11, 2004

ayam kampung

yesterday, i brought my father to hospital selayang for his check-up and consultation... after dropped anisah kat her nursery... pegi bangi picked up my parents... it took almost 1 hour gak nak sampai selayang tu.. tu bawak slow tu plus minor jam.. tapi ayah kata.. laju tu bawak.. ehehehe.. well.. memang laju pun around 100kmh at MRR2...

sampai2.. kena buat lung function test dulu.. sian ayah.. susah gak dia nak hembus ngan sedut nafas thru small hole.. 3-4 kali gak lar buat but still tak smooth.. tapi nurse tu kata it's normal for older generation... as long as we can feel the pain okey lar tu.. hmmm.. okey lar tu kan...

then we have to wait for almost 1 1/2 hour for the consultation physician.. orang takde lar ramai sangat.. tapi biasa lar dah namanya pun consultation kan.. so it os confirmed that next friday (17/12) my father will have to undergo operation for his liver cancer.. selasa (14/12) dah kena masuk ward.. hmm.. awalnya.. sian ayah...

anyway.. my father is confirmed to have liver cancer.. the good news is the cancer only at one place and can be removed.. plus the doctor can do the operation a.s.a.p.. we don;t have to wait long.. thanks to my bro's brother -in-law.. he got friend kat kementerian kesihatan in fact his friend is setiausaha sulit to the timbalan... so we used his power to expedite the operation.. hehehe.. well.. that's how the system works.. we are just lucky.. sebab tu sian gak orang2 yang susah ni.. sebabkan dorang ni takde kenalan... dorang2 ni sengsara menanggung sakit..

then after met the physician, ayah kena buat ECG lak for his jantung... then we went home and had lunch kat restoran ayam kampung kat puchong.. nyam! nyam! nyam!.. pastu baru amik anisah kat nursey then sent my parents kat bangi... lepas tu aku pun knocked-out....

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

virus attacks!!

anisah has been sicked for the past 3 weeks.. she has cold and cough at first.. last saturday went to dr again for the third time.. dr said she might have asthma.. pity her since she is very active girl.. hmmm... now dia knea pakai inhaler to smoothen her breath.. sian dia nangis je bila kena pakai inhaler tu...

well.. daddy also sick now.. been 2 weeks for him.. non-stop cough... especially at nite.. berlawan lagi ngan anisah.. dah jumpa dr buat kali ke empat.. mc lagi untuk ari ni..

as for me.. maybe bila suma orang dah baik.. aku la plak yang kena agaknya.. tak mintak.. but the symptom already there.. skrang ni kena tahan sket sebab nak kena jaga orang sakit dulu.. semalam mc sebab malam berjaga.. ari ni tak dpaat nak mc walaupun kepala sakit ni...

tapi.. orang takkan faham kenapa kita asik sakit.. tau kata tak pandai jaga diri lar itu lar ini lar.. in fact.. kalau orang2 ni boleh faham.. kita ni keluar acri rezeki nak bagi duit kat orang2 ni.. so faham2 lar kalau dah keluar rumah tu.. memang lar terdedah ngan virus dan bakteria.. sebab tu lar senang kena sakit.. tak macam orang yang duduk je kat rumah.. susah nak sakit.. tapi bukan senang nak suruh orang faham.. lelagi kalau orang tu fikir.. dorang je yg betul...

Friday, December 03, 2004


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AGISwlk 2001-2005

a'kum.. for those yang tak tau nak pronounce... bunyi nye gini ek.. A-JIS-WALK- .. what the hell is this?? ni lar projek yang aku tengah buat... and for this year one of the agreement dah tamat.. and coz of that my collegue and me been hitting the keyboard 24-7 for weeks.. welll not me lar.. kekawan yang bujang2 tu je lar....

n finally the report siap yesterday (2/12/2004).. well.. we were actually late 1 day... dateline 30/11 tapi 1/12 baru antar tu pun 1 report je dapat antar lagi satu semalam baru siap... tapi tu lar kan.. bila buat report ramai2 ni.. ada je yang spoil.. well one of my colleague ni.. her report is for chapter 4.. because of her je.. all of us stuck for few days.. because she can't finish her report on time.. dah lar tu.. format tak betul.. spelling teruk.. ayat hampeh.. hmmm.. marah tak... bila orang marah2.. dia pun marah.. at last dah kena jerit ngan aku.. baru padan muka.. well.. i am not being bossy.. but i am the one who have to deal with the client and i had finished my part 2 days before dateline.. so kalau aku marah pun takpe lar.. n aku lagi senior dari dia lar kan.. hehehe..

anyway.. the report is done.. more copies will be made.. now kena buat claim lar plak... lepas ni buat poster etc etc etc...

so that's why lar i've been missing.. sbb nya buat report... starting next year.. i need to prepare for our very last report on database.. since i'm the DBA aku lar kena buat.. so bebudak lain kena stand-by je lar.. ahhaha... boleh guna kuasa...