Job, work, kerja....

kenapa lepas belajar kena kerja?

banyak sebabkan.. tapi all the sebab will revolve around MONEY..

kita kerja sebab perlukan duit... kenapa nak duit??

dulu masa bujang... kita kerja sebab.. yelar.. dah abis belajar... takkan nak kerja.. nak gak rasa duit sendiri... nak balas budi parents yg dah spend banyak masa kita belajar.. nak beli barang yg kita tak penah dapat beli masa kita belajar dulu.. nak beli kereta... dan macam2 lagi lar sebab2nya.

pastu bila dah kahwin.. kita kena kerja gak.. walaupun dah ada hubby.. sebab.. nak tolong hubby.. nak beli rumah sendiri.. nak beli keperluan keluarga..

ada anak plak.. lagi lar banyak nak pakai duit.. so makin lar kena kerja.. takkan nak harapkan laki.. nak beli susu, pampers, baju anak2...

so we need to work selamanya.. hanya nak menampung kehidupan harian... yelar... asal keluar pintu rumah je.. paling kurang 1 sen dah kena spend...

tapi... penatkan.. bila gi kerja.. kita kena marah.. lebih2 lagi kalau kesalahan tu terlalu kecil.. bandingkan dengan orang lain punya kesalahan yg maybe lebih besar.. tapi sebab sama kaum.. buat cam takde apa... tu lar dulu aku keje bumi company tak rasa semua2 ni.. bila dah kerja japanese company lak.. banyak2 kaum lain... ni lar jadi nye...

pastu.. terpikir.. sampai bila nak kerja ngan orang.. dan kena marah ngan orang.. takkan sampai ke tua nak macam ni.. so masa ni lar pk.. hmmm.. bagus nye kalau kerja sendiri... kan?

amil's milestone

at 4 months, 2 weeks and 4 days old.. amil aizat berjaya meniarap... yippie...

another mistakes?

tak tau dah nak buat apa.. rasanya makin lama makin banyak buat salah... dah 10 tahun berlalu.. make mistakes from one to another.... so kalau buat decision lagi lepas ni.. betul ke tak apa yang aku buat ni?? rasa tak nak dah buat keputusan.. kalau decision tu memajukan diri okey lar gak.. tapi terasa makin lama makin teruk.. am i that bad? am i that bold? am i that stupid?

ya allah.. berikan lar petunjuk kepada ku.. supaya aku memilih jalan yg benar... amin

Happy Anniversary...

Happy 3rd Anniversary..

Dear Hubby,

Thank you for completing my life... We have gone thru so many things in this past 3 years and will do for many years to come...

I Love You..

Love, your wife

Missing...

it's been 3 days... but i feel like it's been 3 years...

when she's around.. i scold her...
when she's around.. i said she's making too much noise..
when she's around.. i screamed at her..

but now.. she's not around...

and... i really miss her...

dear anisah sayang... lamanya awak kat brunei.. mummy rindu lar nak gaduh ngan awak.. lagi 4 hari awak nak balik.. lamanyaaaa.....

Perfect Match

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Yippie! Yippie! Yippie!

p/s: this event happened yesterday morning around 10 am

The 1st Anniversary

Yesterday.. 2nd April 2006... genap setahun ayah meninggal... masih terngiang2 lagi kejadian pada hari sabtu 2 april 2005...

walaupun ada harapan ayah yang tak dapat aku tunaikan.. tapi aku bangga.. sebab arwah ayah meninggal apabila anak-anaknya semua sudah atau hampir berjaya.. dalam pelajaran dan kehidupan.. aku, akak dan abang dah mempunyai kerjaya masing-masing dan kedua-dua adik lelaki hampir menamatkan pelajaran masing-masing.. kami semua mampu berbangga dengan tunjuk ajar ayah yang meletakkan kami di peringkat sekarang... walaupun perjalan kami masih jauh...

sekurang-kurangnya ayah dapat mewalikan kedua-dua anak perempuannya dan menyaksikan 4 anak di bawah jagaannya berkahwin dan seorang lagi (ami)... ayah dapat mengenali bakal menantu bongsunya... walaupun ayah tak dapat melihat 2 orang cucu lelakinya.. tapi sekurang-kurangnya arwah ayah tahu dia sudah ada pewaris dengan kehadiran anisah.. satu-satunya cucu yang dikenali dan disayangi...

ayah.. jangan risau.. kami semua akan jaga emak sebaiknya... dan kami akan jaga rumah yang ayah usahakan (walaupun ada orang yang menidakkannya) sebaik mungkin... insya allah kami adik beradik akan bersatu sampai bila-bila.. insya allah kami adik beradik tidak akan menjadikan harta sebagai batu pemisah...

adik (that's me) berdoa semoga roh ayah dicucuri rahmat... dan semoga roh ayah berada di sisiNYA... al-fathihah buat ayah tersayang...

The Birth of Amil Aizat II

orang2: Nama dia sapa??
me: AMIL AIZAT...
orang2: oooooooooooooo.. {after long pause}... apa maknanya?
me: depends on how your pronounced it..

kalau sebut ngan huruf alif... AMIL means.. pekerjaan (alaa.. yang kutip zakat tu lar...) kalau sebut dengah huruf ain.. AMIL means... cenderung kepada kebaikan.. either also cann... AIZAT means... berkedudukan...

orang2: camna dapat nama tu?
me: it's an inspirational name...

as told by my sis once...
akak: sorang takde.. 2 akan ada..
me: huh?
akak: ayah meninggal... tapi kita akan dapat dua ahli baru dalam family..
me: ok..

months after that...

8/11/2005.. ADI was born...
27/12/2005... AMIL AIZAT was born...

soon... more will come insya allah... so the 'keturunan' {dlm english apa ek?} of HAJI ABAS BIN HAJI MAGU will continue...

p/s: to naja n other colleagues... yeee.. amil tu yg kutip zakat.... haaa.. jangan lupa bayar zakat tau... zakat pendapatan tu kena bayar gak... ihiih.. jangan marah naja...

The Unusual Weekend

usually my weekend starts on friday after work where i have to pick up 2 kids and my hubby.. then laze around at home, and the next day (saturday) do all the chores eg basuh baju, lipat baju, gosok baju, kemas bilik etc etc and etc... sunday will be the same plus melayan anisah with her barney and amil with his 'nenen' and 'tido'...

but last weekend was a bit different... it started with a half day of on friday... picked up my 2 kids.. when to OU.. met the CHIs.. well there's only me, caza, nana and een and the young CHIs. anisah, aliah and amil... anisah was superbly active and i guessed the older CHIs were 'pening' watched her active moves... aliah was incredibly sweet asked me for some keropok and looked very sleepy in her stroller but very delighted after her mama let her walk... and amil was a bit amused with the environment so he decided not to sleep but wanted mummy's milk... the events ended with anisah's crying did not want to wave goodbye to all her aunties yang dah kepenatan melayan dia... and she ended up sleeping right after we exited OU.. maybe we can do this again sometime... hmmmm. camne lar nak handle budak 2 orang tu lagi ek??

then i had to pick up Ardi as usual at canon.. later that night my sister came to fetch anisah coz she wanted to bring anisah to go back to JB on the next day... anisah was a bit reluctant to go.. but force by her mummy so she ended up crying hysterically in the car with my sister... actually she was really tired... yippie!! mummy got the weekend off from her.. hehehehe...

my saturday weekend was usual.. need to do more chores with some ease since anisah is not around... and it was mama's (ardi's mom) birthday.. so we bought her a birthday cake and thankfully baba and family was around to finish the cake.. hiihhii... and it was F1 qualifying day..


the best part was on sunday... i had been waiting for this day since late friday... while i was on the way to pick him on friday, he called.. and told me he got free ticket to F1 race day... i was quite happy but a bit worried of whom to take care of amil (anisah was at JB.. so 1 problem solved).. after make few phone calls, we decided to leave amil with his wan ma and tok ibu (my in-laws)... so i had been counting the hours to pick up ardi and went to sepang... and yes it was a wonderful experience... although we didn't get the best seat.. but what the heck it was free tickets and it was a F1.. we decided to go there via KL transit and took shuttle bus to go to sepang from KLIA... although it was a bit expensive.. but we've got free tickets.. so that's fine.. the queue to our gate was very long and some people jumped the queue.. couldn't blame them though cause some people were not sure where to go..

when the race began, i was ready to take some pics of the car... get ready wih my only 3.2mp camera, i managed to take few shots... hahaha.. tapi kelakar nye other camera around me suma yang jenis zoom sampai 1 meter... and since the car was so fast, some of the pic i took was only the track with no car.. hahaaha... dah camera pun cikai je kan.. sob sob... i've been hurrah for kimi the whole race, not knowing that kimi was actually out of the race at turn 5.. duhhhh.... so i thought it was kimi but it was montoya whom i've been cheering.. hehee.. i only found this out after watched buletin utama later that night... but it was fun...


besides the race, we've got to watch other things.. there was this couple in front of us.. the man is a foreigner supporting the Renalut.. and the girl was definitely a malaysian malay.. u know why i said that.. cause 1st the girl's nose was 'pesek'.. and the skin was malay skin... and she's so mengada.. like every time she kissed the guy, she will look around.. see if everybody's watching them.. then.. she will smile very poisely.. hiya can tell lar.. like she wanted to tel people... "hey look at me.. i'm with a mat salleh"... pirahhh.. and we called them (for the girl actually).. TERUJA... hahahaha...



so later that night.. we waited for anisah to come home...

The Birth of Amil Aizat

27 December 2005

3.45 am - in the room, while everybody's sleeping
adehhh.. sakitnya perutttt.. contraction ke?? tak kot... due lagi 2 minggu apa.. takpe.. let me time the interval... la la la la.. hmmm.. memula 10 min.. ni 8 min.. lar.. 15 minit lak.. hmm. tak kot.. mesti premature contraction ni..

me: ayang! sakit perut lar.. cam nak b***k.. tapi tak kuar apa pun...
rd: hmm... sakit sangat ke???
me: tak tau nak kata camna...
rd: hmmmmm... zzzzzzzz

7.15 am - in the room prepared to work

rd: sakit lagi ke?
me: dah kurang sikit tapi masih lagi..
rd: saya hantar awak gi office lar...
me: tak yah lar.. maybe ok lagi kot.. rasanya ni tipu je.. tapi tolong masukkan beg dlm kereta.. mana lar tau kan... anisah.. don't play with that.. mummy wants to keep that in the bag... {she was playing with the baby wipes}
anisah: jsdhakjshdladhasldhal... {don't know what she said!}


7.55 am - in the car after sent ardi
me: anisah... u better be good ok... mummy's in pain ni...

8.25 am - at the office
me: adik-adik.. aku sakit perut larr... korang stand by ek.. {bebudak kat opis tu suma bujang kecuali sorang je yg dah kahwin.. saje takutkan dorang}
z: iskkk.. ko jangan main2 kak lela....
me: hahahahahha
husna: betul ke lela? {she's the only one married with 2 kids}
me: ntah... aku pun tak tau nak kata.. sakit tu adalah tapi interval tak sama.. maybe tak kot.. baby jangan kuar dulu.. tunggu lar tahun depan {talked to the baby}.. okey lar naik atas jap...

8.35 am - office toilet
me: alamak darah!! {panic mode strike}

8.37 am - office downstair
me: husna.. kalau dah ada darah tu camna??
husna: ye lar lela.. aku rasa ntah2 ari ni kot...
me: alaaaa.. kalau boleh tak nak lar.. baby tunggu lar jap.. eh husna.. apa2 ko tolong aku ek... antar aku gi spital ke?
husna: ok

8.43 am - office upstair
keep call ardi and asked his opinion.. and call ee.. his wife just delivered 1 1/2 months ago..
me: hello ee.. ko sibuk ke? aku benda nak tanya ni..
ee: apa?
me: masa su dulu.. tanda dia nak deliver camne?
ee: apsal?
me: aku sakit2.. tapi tak lar kerap... tadi aku gi toilet dah nampak darah camna?
ee: kalau dah ada darah within 24 hours kena gi spital.. ko drive ke?
me: a'a.. hmmm.. takpe lar.. aku try call dr aku dulu tanya dia... apa2 aku call ko
ee: ok

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me: hello mak.. rasa cam dah sakit... tapi tak sure...
mak: gi lar klinik.. check...
me: hmmm.. ok

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tried call the klinik.. the O&G very busy.. nobody picked up the phone.. hmmm.. btw..

me: naja! nak kuar breakfast ek.. order milo ais!

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ee: hello.. ko siap je lar.. aku bawak ko gi klinik.. aku tgh kemas2 ni.. nanti nak sampai aku call..
me: haaa.. yelar

10.12 am - office downstair
me: aku gi klinik lar husna.. adik aku nanti datang amik..

and at the same time meninggalkan amanat to my collegue for my work.. dalam hati.. mana milo aku ni.. jap lagi ee sampai...

10.16 am
naja: akak.. nah milo ais akak...
me: haa.. minum2... alamak ee dah sampai.. ee,, jap... kena minum ni.. mana lar tau.. kalau betul.. nanti tak leh minum.. naja.. kalau apa2.. nanti akak call.. awak antar keta kat spital ek

10.18 am - in ee's car
ee: sakit lagi ke?
me: ada lar gak.. tapi boleh tahan lagi laa.. apa lagi jom aaa gerak..
ee: jap nak kira duit...
me: eh apa2 pinjam dui ko dulu.. aku tak bawak kuar duit
ee: ok

10.37 - arrived az-zahrah
me: dr kamsiah ada? akak dah sakit sangat ni
nurse: dr takde klinik ari ni.. kalau nak jumpa naik tkt 3.. dia ada kat sana..
me: ok

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me: saya nak jumpa dr kamsiah, dia ada tak? nak suruh dia check jap.. dah sakit ni
nurse: akak duduk jap.. saya carik dr kamsiah..
{duduk lar tunggu.. tetiba nampak dr.. }
me: dr... rasanya cam sakit.. nak mintak dr check jap laa
dr: ok.. awak masuk bilik ni jap..
{masuk.. bukak lar apa yg patut.. dr pun check n citer lar apa jadi}
dr: eh dah bukak 6cm ni.. baik awak gi hospital cepat...
dr (to ee): bila2 masa je ni.. ntah2 sebelum zuhur..
dr (to me): hati2 ye... semoga selamat..
me: tima kasih ye dr..

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10.59 am - in ee's car

1st call.. to ardi..
me: ayang.. saya dah on d way ke hospital ni.. ee bawak keta cam orang giler... so camna awak nak datang hospital?
rd: hmm... camne ek... suruh ee datang amik lar..
me: haaa.. jap.. ee ko amik rd kat canon boleh?
ee: ok2..
me: oiittt.. leks aaa apsal bawak laju2 ni.. bukannye nak terus keluar pun..
ee: eh ko tak dengar ke dr cakap bila2 masa tau..
{ee bawak keta laju giler.. dah lar pasang hazardlight pastu suma keta kat depan dia kena high beam}
me: ok yang.. apa2 call..
rd: ok.. cakap ee.. leks sket

11.18 am - arrived hospital
ee: kak.. dia dah nak terberanak ni (to the guard)
me: leks aaa.. gi parking dulu..

11.25 am - after all the procedure.. the nurse asked me to change clothes.. and go to labor room

11.30 am - recite everything i can and wonder if ardi can make it..

tick tock..

12.52 pm - in the labor room
me: {press the emergency button}
me: nurse.. saya dah tak tahan sangat ni..
nurse 1: meh saya tengok awak leh teran ke tak...
nurse 2: akak.. suami akak apa nama?
me: Ardi Irwan Md Radzi..
nurse 2: ok sebentar ye.. jap lagi dia leh masukk
rd: a'kum...
nurse 1: awak tunggu jap..
me: ayanggg.... tolongggg... sakittt...
nurse 1: ok awak dah boleh masuk.. {asked rd to come in}
nurse 1: ok try lagi skali... jangan angkat punggung.. jangan kuar bunyi...
me: {try and try.. }
nurse 1: hmmm.. tak leh.. awak panic...
rd: jangan panic yanggg..
me: {aku panic ke???}
nurse 1: ok kita try cara lain.. awak menggiring.. kalau sakit.. terannnn..
me: ok

few seconds after that...
me: alhamdulillah..
nurse 1: ok.. cepat2 dah kuar dah ni...
rd: haaa??
nurse 1: ok tgk.. awak dapat anak apa..
me: lelaki..

and that's how AMIL AIZAT was born..


for info.. i had different experience with anisah.. where i don't feel any contraction at all until i was in the labor room..

Am Back!

a'kum everybody...

i have finished with my confinement holidays about 4 days ago am back at work again... i will write the event of amil aizat's departure when i have upload all the pics and have the brain to write...

Exhausted...

looking at my lilypie.. am due in 26 days... time flies really fast huh... sometimes i wish to give birh soon.. cause am very tired and very exhausted.. but at the same time, i wish that my dear baby will come as schedule or at least in 2006.. well i ahve this crazy idea to have a gap between them (anisah and her adik) for 2 years (at least by year).. so that it won't burden us so much when come to their education expenses.. waaaaa... i know it's still a long way to go.. but to live in current decades and economy all that have to be taken into consideration... right??

there are still a lot more for me to do before the baby come out.. well.. i've got to settle some stuff.. errr.. not work stuff.. but more to ardi's and anisah's stuff... basically during the confinement period.. i will be in JB... for the full 60 days.. yipiiieeee...

many people don't like their confinement period.. but i simply love it.. well firstly because i've got to stay in JB for a long time.. which means a break from my in-laws.. hhehehhehe.. and i love to food that i've got to eat.. am not that fussy about food.. as long as it comes with black pepper sauce and hot food... i can deal with that... and i don't mind to get massages... the only thing i will miss is my dear hubby... cause i have to leave him in shah alam... so that will be the only thing worries me... well my cocern is.. who's going to wash his clothes, who's going to prepare his meal, who he's going out with (hehehe!) and hope he will not forget his vitamins etc.. i know her's staying with his mom.. but am still his concern wife.. kan? kan? kan? oh well.. surely our phone bill will increase tremendously... just like before..

i-allah i will write my final post before i am due... in the meantime... take care all!!

Anisah's cousin

finally anisah have a cousin and i have a nephew.. well..i've been waiting for a nieces/nephews since 5 years ago when my brother got married.. eventually i've got pregnant first before my sister-in-law... then my younger brother got married early this year and his wife was pregnant.. and she gave birth to a handsome baby boy by the of ADI..

adi je ke?? that's what everybody asked my brother.. and YES is his answer.. so his name is ADI BIN ZULKHAIRI.. which means.. "nama sahabat nabi" or in sanskrit (according to my bro, "first son")..

this are his pics and anisah really2 adores the little buddy... she kept kissing him until he cried and cried and cried.. ihihhi.. that's my daughter..

Raya Pics

in my last blog.. i didn't post any pictures since i always forget to upload it at my PC.. finally i've done it.. so here are some pics.. then i realized... we hadn't had pics just the three of us (me, ardi & anisah) and also anisah alone with her new baju kurung.. silliu me! :(

anisah and daddy

anisah and mummy

mummy and aunties and uncles

Raya 2005

today is 12 Syawal 1426...

this raya was not the same as before.. for the first time ever, we had to celebrate it without our beloved father who passed away 7 months earlier.. we had to spent this raya here in Shah Alam/KL since my sister-in-law was due soon.. and it was different.. although we spent the raya together on the 1st Syawal (except for Abang).. it was different... we didn't got to eat either ayah's (definitely) and mak's (even!) dishes.. what we ate was what other families cook for us.. yes it was different.. and i didn't get to fill up my empty stomach like i used to do.. cause it was different..

i managed not to cry during the raya.. but i did cried few days before raya.. somebody reminded me of ayah and it was really sad.. the only happy moments for me during the raya was to dressed up my little girl, anisah.. to see her with her baju kurung (first ever!).. and to see her had such a wonderful time with ardi's cousin..

this weekend, am going back to JB.. my brother is going to host an open house (plus house warming and doa selamat)... although it will be 2 weeks after raya.. but to go back to JB for the occassion makes me feel like 'balik kampung' for the raya..

i just wish.. next year.. although the feeling might be the same.. but the environment will be different...

Influenced by Nana

No 1

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

No 2


Your Japanese Name Is...




Hisano Kujo

What's your Japanese Name?

No 3

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

No 4
You Are Cinderella!

Dignified and hard working. With a gentle and soft-spoken manner you have something many people don't. Patience. Even through the moments of heartbreak you're still able to hold onto all of your hopes and dreams. Bide your time; your dream will come true.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Ramadhan

Been away for quite some time huh!.. well am not the kind of person who write much.. plus there's nothing interesting going on in my life now..

when ramadan begin.. i vow to once again.. to fast full 30 days.. i've done it for the last 2 years (1st year while preggies with anisah, 2nd year while breastfeed anisah and had no period at the time).. but this year i failed although am pregannat for the second time.. i've got conjunctivitis last week, so i couldn't fast for about 5 days.. although some people wonder why.. well.. kena letak ubat mata kan.. kat mata kan ada liang rongga.. so tak leh lar puasa.. sob sob.. but i will stick to my second vows to try khatam quran.. so far i am in the right track.. only missing a day.. but can be recover during the weekend..

last weekend i went home to JB (after leave the place since July).. it was great to berbuka with my family.. everybody was there.. mak, abang, kak ina, kak lina, me, ardi, anisah n ee also ijam (ee's friend).. only boy (my bro-in-law who had to work) and su (my sis-in-law who 8 1/2 months pregnant) couldn't join us.. we had some great food.. with mak masak her lontong and bubur asyura, akak with her umai, me with my ketam black pepper (requested by my abang), abang with his house.. and ee with his supersodalicious air bandung.. and uncle was also joined us with his only staying with him son.. and anisah also had a good time.. munching telur rebus with some sambal..

although the trip was a quick one.. i had a great time.. but at the same time.. i felt very tired.. but i know we at least made mak happy for a while.. this raya won;t be the same since ayah has just passed away.. so to cheer her up is a priority.. but we will spend the raya here in KL/Shah Alam/Bangi since my sister-in-law will due soon..

perhapes.. we meet after raya.. Selamat Berpuasa (lagi 15 hari ni!!) and Selamat Hari Raya.. to those who know me.. i would like to apologize if there are any mstakes verbally, phsically or mentally to any of u..

Never Ending!

i've been sicked again.. this time it's worst i guess.. last tuesday we had dinner at one of ardi's aunt's house... of course there were lots of food.. and i tried a bit here and there.. then my bowel started to have fun.. and it happened several time and i vomitted too.. and till now.. it still occurred..

now i am afraid to eat.. because if i ate.. either i passed out from bottom or top.. but i have to eat for the sake of my baby... but i feel very very sick now...

Past, present and future

i've been tagged by Nana

20 years ago: 1985 (I was 8)
Can't remember much.. but I knew I had a lot of friends that last until my secondary year.. not a great student.. always scold by my teacher.. was very bad girl at the time.. most teachers didn't like me n my groupies.. but i think my class teacher was Pn Nila.. she was our class teacher until we're standard 6..

10 years ago: 1995 (I was 18)
I went to English Course sponsored by MARA.. not a great one.. it was a waste of time.. should get a job or something.. got my license.. but too scared to drive, after the english course, i worked for my uncle for couple of months before accepted to MARA College Banting where I met my good friends, my hubby.. most important, that was the year where I had the biggest crush ever in my life.. where my 'antenna' was working whenever he passed by.. but i never realized somebody have an even bigger crush on me.. my dear hubby.. we formed so-called clubhouse, CH106ers.. i ripped of my pants just to catch a stalker.. dah lar tu masa tu tengah syok makan satay..

5 years ago: 2000 (I was 23)
I finished my degree at WMU.. i met some good friends like Sobi, Kak Lin, Kak Long, Josh, Kristy, Carl, Mike, Dorothy.. and there was this cute nigger guy who had crush on me. asked me out several times, but i dare not to.. so sad i had to leave the country where i gained valuable experience also sad that my parents never got to witness my graduation day.. but at the same time am excited to go home for my bro's wedding and most of all to meet my distance boyfriend, ARDI IRWAN (whom had crush on me kat Banting).. got my first job at an insurance company but had to quit after three months to go back to JB to live with my parents..

3 years ago: 2002 (I was 25)
Not an interesting year.. am busy working with current company.. back and forth to KL to meet my dear bf.. and sibuk simpan duit for my wedding.. that's about it i guess.. oh yeah.. i went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah that year for a workshop..

Last year: 2004 (I was 27)
Giving birth to my lovely daugther, Nur Anisah.. my sister got married with my senior.. my grandfather passed away (all this happen in 3 months period).. watching anisah's milestone every month or is it every day.. hmmm!! and towards end of the year, received devastating news.. my father got liver cancer...

This year: 2005 (I am 28)
My father still received treatment at the hospital.. my brother, EE got married in February with a lovely girl.. my father passed away in April.. I've got pregnant again.. had some complications at first but then everything is safe now.. not satisfied with current company.. still mourning over my father's death..

Next year: 2006 (I will be 29)
Insya allah will give birth to another soul.. now have to deal with two kids.. hopefully ardi will keep up with me.. will try again to find another job.. hope my older brother and sister will have kids on their own

10 years from now: 2015 (38 ek?)
I just hope to have better life.. anisah will be 11+ by then and her brother or sister will be 8 kot.. and probably more adik to follow... Will ARDI still loves me? hopefully.. and insya allah i will still love him... hope to have my own home, hope to still have my current friends.. and most importantly, hope i will have a healthy and berkat life.. insya allah..

Langkawi Island!

last weekend, i went for a trip to langkawi with my colleagues.. we had family day there.. we're off on thursday night at 1 am and reached kuala perlis around 9.30am.. here's the journey..

Friday, 2nd September 2005 (Putrajaya - Kuala Perlis - Jeti Kuah - Aseania Resort)

Our bus arrived around 1 am at Putrajaya (after waited for almost 2 hours).. anisah was great she only woke up once before we departed (tu pun sebab dengar sore2 sumbang yang memekak!).. then slept again before we even passed NKVE (should be earlier but they put on Pontianak Menjerit.. so tertengok kejap sb dengar sore ngilai).. we had several stops along the way.. and had breakfast and solat subuh at R&R Gurun.. we reached Kuala Perlis around 9.30am and had to wait for the other bus from Johor Bahru before took the ferry to Jeti Kuah at 11.30am.. while most babies and some adults had difficult time in the ferry.. anisah felt asleep.. so she's been great.. finally we arrived at Aseania Resort at almost 1.30pm and had lunch before check-in to our room.. and very very tired.. later that day we had our first game i.e beach volleyball and beach soccer.. of course i didn't play any of the game so i just layan anisah in the pool.. after dinner we had a another game, Conteng-conteng or WIn, Lose or Draw.. our team got no.2.. after a long day.. we finally got to sleep

Saturday, 3rd September 2005 (Aseania Resort)


We had more telematch on this day.. after breakfast we went to the beach and played some games.. anisah was not in the good mood.. she was crancky up.. only for me to find out that she wanted to sleep.. i guess it's the medicine that we gave her.. hehheeh.. so i only watched ardi played all the games.. and our team lose most of the time.. sob sob.. we finished the game by noon.. and after lunch we took anisah again to the pool.. she really had fun in there.. the game continued after asar.. and the prize ceremony was held over the BBQ that night... unfortunately my team got the last place.. iskk.. sebab aku tak main kot.. hehehe...

Sunday, 4th September 2005 (Aseania Resort - LADA - Kilang Gamat - Underwater World - Cable Car - Pekan Kuah - Aseania Resort)


we went to LADA as our first stop.. it bored most of us.. LADA is Langkawi Developmenet AUthority.. my boss wanted us to go there to know the planning sturcture of Langkawi.. only that the taklimat was held too long.. fortunately for me.. anisah was cranky up again.. so even before the taklimat begun.. i had to go out and we managed to go the shopping mall next to the building.. after long waiting hours, we went to Kilang Gamat.. it's not really a kilang but more like small shop taht produced gamat.. we spent a lot of money here to get gamat product and it was fun.. before we went to the underwater world, we had lunch at restoran kampung siam which is next to the underwater world.. then we went to Gunung Mat Chincang where the cable car is.. by that time.. my leg was already killing me.. my right leg was cramped and i can't even walk fast.. but we managed to climb up the mountain via cable car.. and anisah didn't freaked out at all.. even some of my guy collegue pun takut!!.. what a brave girl.. trip to pekan kuah was a frustrating one for us.. my leg really eat me.. and ardi was frustrated because i coudn't help him to pick up some souveniers.. we ended up buying stuff for our parents and siblings.. and went straight to the bus.. after taht we went straight to the hotel.. and packing time..

Monday, 5th September 2005 (Aseania Resort - Jeti Kuah - Kuala Perlis - ALor Star - Putrajaya)

This our final day of the trip.. we left the resort around 8.45am and went to jeti kuah to catch the next ferry at 10am.. we managed to stop by the dataran lang to take some pictures.. we went straight to alor star after reached kuala perlis to had lunch at restoran berputar in menara alor star.. then we headed back to putrajaya and reached there around 10pm after several stops..

overall the trip was fun.. although there was some ugly moments.. hopefully next family day.. we will have anothe fun trip.. insya allah..