rindu??

tau.. tau dah lama sangat ni... so apa yg boleh buat.. gi je lar kat link ni..

9th July...

this date will always be remembered.. it's my father's birthday.. he'll be 59 this year if he's still alive.. but he passed away a year ago due to liver cancer..

semoga roh ayah dicucuri rahmatNYA.. insya allah..

p/s:so many things happen in past weeks.. tapi no time to blog it.. will try to find the time..

Job, work, kerja....

kenapa lepas belajar kena kerja?

banyak sebabkan.. tapi all the sebab will revolve around MONEY..

kita kerja sebab perlukan duit... kenapa nak duit??

dulu masa bujang... kita kerja sebab.. yelar.. dah abis belajar... takkan nak kerja.. nak gak rasa duit sendiri... nak balas budi parents yg dah spend banyak masa kita belajar.. nak beli barang yg kita tak penah dapat beli masa kita belajar dulu.. nak beli kereta... dan macam2 lagi lar sebab2nya.

pastu bila dah kahwin.. kita kena kerja gak.. walaupun dah ada hubby.. sebab.. nak tolong hubby.. nak beli rumah sendiri.. nak beli keperluan keluarga..

ada anak plak.. lagi lar banyak nak pakai duit.. so makin lar kena kerja.. takkan nak harapkan laki.. nak beli susu, pampers, baju anak2...

so we need to work selamanya.. hanya nak menampung kehidupan harian... yelar... asal keluar pintu rumah je.. paling kurang 1 sen dah kena spend...

tapi... penatkan.. bila gi kerja.. kita kena marah.. lebih2 lagi kalau kesalahan tu terlalu kecil.. bandingkan dengan orang lain punya kesalahan yg maybe lebih besar.. tapi sebab sama kaum.. buat cam takde apa... tu lar dulu aku keje bumi company tak rasa semua2 ni.. bila dah kerja japanese company lak.. banyak2 kaum lain... ni lar jadi nye...

pastu.. terpikir.. sampai bila nak kerja ngan orang.. dan kena marah ngan orang.. takkan sampai ke tua nak macam ni.. so masa ni lar pk.. hmmm.. bagus nye kalau kerja sendiri... kan?

amil's milestone

at 4 months, 2 weeks and 4 days old.. amil aizat berjaya meniarap... yippie...

another mistakes?

tak tau dah nak buat apa.. rasanya makin lama makin banyak buat salah... dah 10 tahun berlalu.. make mistakes from one to another.... so kalau buat decision lagi lepas ni.. betul ke tak apa yang aku buat ni?? rasa tak nak dah buat keputusan.. kalau decision tu memajukan diri okey lar gak.. tapi terasa makin lama makin teruk.. am i that bad? am i that bold? am i that stupid?

ya allah.. berikan lar petunjuk kepada ku.. supaya aku memilih jalan yg benar... amin

Happy Anniversary...

Happy 3rd Anniversary..

Dear Hubby,

Thank you for completing my life... We have gone thru so many things in this past 3 years and will do for many years to come...

I Love You..

Love, your wife

Missing...

it's been 3 days... but i feel like it's been 3 years...

when she's around.. i scold her...
when she's around.. i said she's making too much noise..
when she's around.. i screamed at her..

but now.. she's not around...

and... i really miss her...

dear anisah sayang... lamanya awak kat brunei.. mummy rindu lar nak gaduh ngan awak.. lagi 4 hari awak nak balik.. lamanyaaaa.....

Perfect Match

i've won the Mix.FM perfect match contest!!

Q1) What would you do if you lose your wallet??
Q2) If you are in hurry, what will be the meat dish you prepare for your husband?
Q3) How much money your husband carry in his wallet everyday?
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A1) Definitely called him!
A2) Anything to do with chicken, chicken nugget!
A3) 50 - 100

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Congratulations! both of you have won rm250 giant voucher!

Yippie! Yippie! Yippie!

p/s: this event happened yesterday morning around 10 am

The 1st Anniversary

Yesterday.. 2nd April 2006... genap setahun ayah meninggal... masih terngiang2 lagi kejadian pada hari sabtu 2 april 2005...

walaupun ada harapan ayah yang tak dapat aku tunaikan.. tapi aku bangga.. sebab arwah ayah meninggal apabila anak-anaknya semua sudah atau hampir berjaya.. dalam pelajaran dan kehidupan.. aku, akak dan abang dah mempunyai kerjaya masing-masing dan kedua-dua adik lelaki hampir menamatkan pelajaran masing-masing.. kami semua mampu berbangga dengan tunjuk ajar ayah yang meletakkan kami di peringkat sekarang... walaupun perjalan kami masih jauh...

sekurang-kurangnya ayah dapat mewalikan kedua-dua anak perempuannya dan menyaksikan 4 anak di bawah jagaannya berkahwin dan seorang lagi (ami)... ayah dapat mengenali bakal menantu bongsunya... walaupun ayah tak dapat melihat 2 orang cucu lelakinya.. tapi sekurang-kurangnya arwah ayah tahu dia sudah ada pewaris dengan kehadiran anisah.. satu-satunya cucu yang dikenali dan disayangi...

ayah.. jangan risau.. kami semua akan jaga emak sebaiknya... dan kami akan jaga rumah yang ayah usahakan (walaupun ada orang yang menidakkannya) sebaik mungkin... insya allah kami adik beradik akan bersatu sampai bila-bila.. insya allah kami adik beradik tidak akan menjadikan harta sebagai batu pemisah...

adik (that's me) berdoa semoga roh ayah dicucuri rahmat... dan semoga roh ayah berada di sisiNYA... al-fathihah buat ayah tersayang...

The Birth of Amil Aizat II

orang2: Nama dia sapa??
me: AMIL AIZAT...
orang2: oooooooooooooo.. {after long pause}... apa maknanya?
me: depends on how your pronounced it..

kalau sebut ngan huruf alif... AMIL means.. pekerjaan (alaa.. yang kutip zakat tu lar...) kalau sebut dengah huruf ain.. AMIL means... cenderung kepada kebaikan.. either also cann... AIZAT means... berkedudukan...

orang2: camna dapat nama tu?
me: it's an inspirational name...

as told by my sis once...
akak: sorang takde.. 2 akan ada..
me: huh?
akak: ayah meninggal... tapi kita akan dapat dua ahli baru dalam family..
me: ok..

months after that...

8/11/2005.. ADI was born...
27/12/2005... AMIL AIZAT was born...

soon... more will come insya allah... so the 'keturunan' {dlm english apa ek?} of HAJI ABAS BIN HAJI MAGU will continue...

p/s: to naja n other colleagues... yeee.. amil tu yg kutip zakat.... haaa.. jangan lupa bayar zakat tau... zakat pendapatan tu kena bayar gak... ihiih.. jangan marah naja...

The Unusual Weekend

usually my weekend starts on friday after work where i have to pick up 2 kids and my hubby.. then laze around at home, and the next day (saturday) do all the chores eg basuh baju, lipat baju, gosok baju, kemas bilik etc etc and etc... sunday will be the same plus melayan anisah with her barney and amil with his 'nenen' and 'tido'...

but last weekend was a bit different... it started with a half day of on friday... picked up my 2 kids.. when to OU.. met the CHIs.. well there's only me, caza, nana and een and the young CHIs. anisah, aliah and amil... anisah was superbly active and i guessed the older CHIs were 'pening' watched her active moves... aliah was incredibly sweet asked me for some keropok and looked very sleepy in her stroller but very delighted after her mama let her walk... and amil was a bit amused with the environment so he decided not to sleep but wanted mummy's milk... the events ended with anisah's crying did not want to wave goodbye to all her aunties yang dah kepenatan melayan dia... and she ended up sleeping right after we exited OU.. maybe we can do this again sometime... hmmmm. camne lar nak handle budak 2 orang tu lagi ek??

then i had to pick up Ardi as usual at canon.. later that night my sister came to fetch anisah coz she wanted to bring anisah to go back to JB on the next day... anisah was a bit reluctant to go.. but force by her mummy so she ended up crying hysterically in the car with my sister... actually she was really tired... yippie!! mummy got the weekend off from her.. hehehehe...

my saturday weekend was usual.. need to do more chores with some ease since anisah is not around... and it was mama's (ardi's mom) birthday.. so we bought her a birthday cake and thankfully baba and family was around to finish the cake.. hiihhii... and it was F1 qualifying day..


the best part was on sunday... i had been waiting for this day since late friday... while i was on the way to pick him on friday, he called.. and told me he got free ticket to F1 race day... i was quite happy but a bit worried of whom to take care of amil (anisah was at JB.. so 1 problem solved).. after make few phone calls, we decided to leave amil with his wan ma and tok ibu (my in-laws)... so i had been counting the hours to pick up ardi and went to sepang... and yes it was a wonderful experience... although we didn't get the best seat.. but what the heck it was free tickets and it was a F1.. we decided to go there via KL transit and took shuttle bus to go to sepang from KLIA... although it was a bit expensive.. but we've got free tickets.. so that's fine.. the queue to our gate was very long and some people jumped the queue.. couldn't blame them though cause some people were not sure where to go..

when the race began, i was ready to take some pics of the car... get ready wih my only 3.2mp camera, i managed to take few shots... hahaha.. tapi kelakar nye other camera around me suma yang jenis zoom sampai 1 meter... and since the car was so fast, some of the pic i took was only the track with no car.. hahaaha... dah camera pun cikai je kan.. sob sob... i've been hurrah for kimi the whole race, not knowing that kimi was actually out of the race at turn 5.. duhhhh.... so i thought it was kimi but it was montoya whom i've been cheering.. hehee.. i only found this out after watched buletin utama later that night... but it was fun...


besides the race, we've got to watch other things.. there was this couple in front of us.. the man is a foreigner supporting the Renalut.. and the girl was definitely a malaysian malay.. u know why i said that.. cause 1st the girl's nose was 'pesek'.. and the skin was malay skin... and she's so mengada.. like every time she kissed the guy, she will look around.. see if everybody's watching them.. then.. she will smile very poisely.. hiya can tell lar.. like she wanted to tel people... "hey look at me.. i'm with a mat salleh"... pirahhh.. and we called them (for the girl actually).. TERUJA... hahahaha...



so later that night.. we waited for anisah to come home...

The Birth of Amil Aizat

27 December 2005

3.45 am - in the room, while everybody's sleeping
adehhh.. sakitnya perutttt.. contraction ke?? tak kot... due lagi 2 minggu apa.. takpe.. let me time the interval... la la la la.. hmmm.. memula 10 min.. ni 8 min.. lar.. 15 minit lak.. hmm. tak kot.. mesti premature contraction ni..

me: ayang! sakit perut lar.. cam nak b***k.. tapi tak kuar apa pun...
rd: hmm... sakit sangat ke???
me: tak tau nak kata camna...
rd: hmmmmm... zzzzzzzz

7.15 am - in the room prepared to work

rd: sakit lagi ke?
me: dah kurang sikit tapi masih lagi..
rd: saya hantar awak gi office lar...
me: tak yah lar.. maybe ok lagi kot.. rasanya ni tipu je.. tapi tolong masukkan beg dlm kereta.. mana lar tau kan... anisah.. don't play with that.. mummy wants to keep that in the bag... {she was playing with the baby wipes}
anisah: jsdhakjshdladhasldhal... {don't know what she said!}


7.55 am - in the car after sent ardi
me: anisah... u better be good ok... mummy's in pain ni...

8.25 am - at the office
me: adik-adik.. aku sakit perut larr... korang stand by ek.. {bebudak kat opis tu suma bujang kecuali sorang je yg dah kahwin.. saje takutkan dorang}
z: iskkk.. ko jangan main2 kak lela....
me: hahahahahha
husna: betul ke lela? {she's the only one married with 2 kids}
me: ntah... aku pun tak tau nak kata.. sakit tu adalah tapi interval tak sama.. maybe tak kot.. baby jangan kuar dulu.. tunggu lar tahun depan {talked to the baby}.. okey lar naik atas jap...

8.35 am - office toilet
me: alamak darah!! {panic mode strike}

8.37 am - office downstair
me: husna.. kalau dah ada darah tu camna??
husna: ye lar lela.. aku rasa ntah2 ari ni kot...
me: alaaaa.. kalau boleh tak nak lar.. baby tunggu lar jap.. eh husna.. apa2 ko tolong aku ek... antar aku gi spital ke?
husna: ok

8.43 am - office upstair
keep call ardi and asked his opinion.. and call ee.. his wife just delivered 1 1/2 months ago..
me: hello ee.. ko sibuk ke? aku benda nak tanya ni..
ee: apa?
me: masa su dulu.. tanda dia nak deliver camne?
ee: apsal?
me: aku sakit2.. tapi tak lar kerap... tadi aku gi toilet dah nampak darah camna?
ee: kalau dah ada darah within 24 hours kena gi spital.. ko drive ke?
me: a'a.. hmmm.. takpe lar.. aku try call dr aku dulu tanya dia... apa2 aku call ko
ee: ok

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me: hello mak.. rasa cam dah sakit... tapi tak sure...
mak: gi lar klinik.. check...
me: hmmm.. ok

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tried call the klinik.. the O&G very busy.. nobody picked up the phone.. hmmm.. btw..

me: naja! nak kuar breakfast ek.. order milo ais!

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ee: hello.. ko siap je lar.. aku bawak ko gi klinik.. aku tgh kemas2 ni.. nanti nak sampai aku call..
me: haaa.. yelar

10.12 am - office downstair
me: aku gi klinik lar husna.. adik aku nanti datang amik..

and at the same time meninggalkan amanat to my collegue for my work.. dalam hati.. mana milo aku ni.. jap lagi ee sampai...

10.16 am
naja: akak.. nah milo ais akak...
me: haa.. minum2... alamak ee dah sampai.. ee,, jap... kena minum ni.. mana lar tau.. kalau betul.. nanti tak leh minum.. naja.. kalau apa2.. nanti akak call.. awak antar keta kat spital ek

10.18 am - in ee's car
ee: sakit lagi ke?
me: ada lar gak.. tapi boleh tahan lagi laa.. apa lagi jom aaa gerak..
ee: jap nak kira duit...
me: eh apa2 pinjam dui ko dulu.. aku tak bawak kuar duit
ee: ok

10.37 - arrived az-zahrah
me: dr kamsiah ada? akak dah sakit sangat ni
nurse: dr takde klinik ari ni.. kalau nak jumpa naik tkt 3.. dia ada kat sana..
me: ok

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me: saya nak jumpa dr kamsiah, dia ada tak? nak suruh dia check jap.. dah sakit ni
nurse: akak duduk jap.. saya carik dr kamsiah..
{duduk lar tunggu.. tetiba nampak dr.. }
me: dr... rasanya cam sakit.. nak mintak dr check jap laa
dr: ok.. awak masuk bilik ni jap..
{masuk.. bukak lar apa yg patut.. dr pun check n citer lar apa jadi}
dr: eh dah bukak 6cm ni.. baik awak gi hospital cepat...
dr (to ee): bila2 masa je ni.. ntah2 sebelum zuhur..
dr (to me): hati2 ye... semoga selamat..
me: tima kasih ye dr..

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10.59 am - in ee's car

1st call.. to ardi..
me: ayang.. saya dah on d way ke hospital ni.. ee bawak keta cam orang giler... so camna awak nak datang hospital?
rd: hmm... camne ek... suruh ee datang amik lar..
me: haaa.. jap.. ee ko amik rd kat canon boleh?
ee: ok2..
me: oiittt.. leks aaa apsal bawak laju2 ni.. bukannye nak terus keluar pun..
ee: eh ko tak dengar ke dr cakap bila2 masa tau..
{ee bawak keta laju giler.. dah lar pasang hazardlight pastu suma keta kat depan dia kena high beam}
me: ok yang.. apa2 call..
rd: ok.. cakap ee.. leks sket

11.18 am - arrived hospital
ee: kak.. dia dah nak terberanak ni (to the guard)
me: leks aaa.. gi parking dulu..

11.25 am - after all the procedure.. the nurse asked me to change clothes.. and go to labor room

11.30 am - recite everything i can and wonder if ardi can make it..

tick tock..

12.52 pm - in the labor room
me: {press the emergency button}
me: nurse.. saya dah tak tahan sangat ni..
nurse 1: meh saya tengok awak leh teran ke tak...
nurse 2: akak.. suami akak apa nama?
me: Ardi Irwan Md Radzi..
nurse 2: ok sebentar ye.. jap lagi dia leh masukk
rd: a'kum...
nurse 1: awak tunggu jap..
me: ayanggg.... tolongggg... sakittt...
nurse 1: ok awak dah boleh masuk.. {asked rd to come in}
nurse 1: ok try lagi skali... jangan angkat punggung.. jangan kuar bunyi...
me: {try and try.. }
nurse 1: hmmm.. tak leh.. awak panic...
rd: jangan panic yanggg..
me: {aku panic ke???}
nurse 1: ok kita try cara lain.. awak menggiring.. kalau sakit.. terannnn..
me: ok

few seconds after that...
me: alhamdulillah..
nurse 1: ok.. cepat2 dah kuar dah ni...
rd: haaa??
nurse 1: ok tgk.. awak dapat anak apa..
me: lelaki..

and that's how AMIL AIZAT was born..


for info.. i had different experience with anisah.. where i don't feel any contraction at all until i was in the labor room..

Am Back!

a'kum everybody...

i have finished with my confinement holidays about 4 days ago am back at work again... i will write the event of amil aizat's departure when i have upload all the pics and have the brain to write...